So I'm here!

well i've been in Vancouver for a couple days so far and so far i'm liking it. the weather's been super nice but it's going to start getting kinda cloudy/rainy into the 70's starting today. hopefully it doesn't rain too much because i don't have any cute rainboots yet haha :P

Vancouver is a beautiful city... i love how you can see the downtown city buildings with the mountains in the background. i went to Kitsilano beach yesterday and it was so cute! the beaches here are so different... well i think there are several different types of beaches. ones right along the ocean coast, some along the bay and some other bodies of water that feed from the ocean. Kitsilano beach has a swimming area sectioned out as well as a HUGE outdoor swimming pool that is filled with salt water and it's right by the ocean so you can go lap swimming and like...still be at the beach! i like that Vancouver has the city life for those looking for the busy things and exciting-ness but offers such beautiful nature to enjoy outdoor activities and sporty things. 

we went to Robson St yesterday too- SHOPPPPPPING! went to the first Aritzia store hehe. let's just call yesterday a success as i located the Aritzia base, Tiffany & Co, Louis Vuitton and found Japadog! i'm also happy to report that the mall super close to me (Oakridge Mall... kind of ironic because there's the Westfield Oakridge Mall close to my house at home in Norcal hehe) has Lululemon and Aritzia!! Super EASY ACCESS. :]

hmm... what else. oh where i'm living. so i'm renting a room in a house in Shaughnessy (gorrrrrgeous) temporarily until i pretty much find out my exam results, how much i like my job, how stable my job is and how long i think i'll be staying in Vancouver. my room is a good size, it came furnished with a full size bed, desk, closet, drawers etc. and a tv (with cable!). haha ok the tv with cable is probably the only thing i would call an *upgrade* from my life at home. i also have a small patio and one wall is all glass windows so it lets in all the sun during the day/afternoon and fresh air. i plan to sit there during the day to read/study/eat and stuff. it's good extra storage space and a good little area. oh, i'm sitting here now as i type this haha. the only thing i don't really like is the bathroom. i have to share with the other tenants (2 guys, 1 girl) and from what i see, the guys are dirty and the girl is clean. but there's this nasty smell...ugh. i'm going to buy air fresheners. i think it's because the house is kinda old... well, other than that i don't really have a problem. i think this will just take a lot of getting used to. hopefully i can move out soon. but then again, i am saving a lot of money living here so... i guess i'll just have to see.

adjusting has been rough. orientation starts tomorrow and hopefully i'll meet some more new grads like me and not feel so lonely. i lost support that i used to have and i think that makes a huge difference for me. i'm adjusting to my new beginning, new job, new city, new people and ... other changes. one thing continues to hit me the hardest and it's always in the back of my mind no matter how hard i try not to think about it. i thought i would be able to handle it okay... i thought i prepared myself and i was ready... obviously i am not. i know it'll take some time  but it's so painful crying everyday. i don't want to but sometimes it's like i can't help it. i want to not think about it and not let it bother me but it does. and i don't know what to do. i think i should listen to Better in Time on repeat.

it'll all get better in time.