argh.

i'm at work and we had an extra long break today and i couldn't even sleep. grrr stupid very strong vietnamese coffee!! i hate going on first break but sometimes i'm just too shy to say it. the pregnant nurses deserve first pick at breaks so... yeah HAHA.

maybe it's because of the coffee why i couldn't sleep. or maybe it's because i was thinking about what i did, what i didn't do or what i have to do. or maybe it's because ever since last week, my mind has been MAJORLY distracted by moving and finding another place to live. it's taking over my mind and my actions... all i do is go on craigslist/kijiji and today chelsea even brought her bike/rollerblades so we could go out and look for vacancies and call all of them. the more i think about it, the more frustrated i am. now i'm starting to think that it's too much and maybe i should just stay in my house a little longer, be a little more patient, save a little more money and move out in December. but then that's winter and with the winter olympics coming i feel like it'll be tough. UGH. it's like no matter when i choose to move, it's not ideal. right now, it's competing with the students. later it'll be with tourists or people moving to the city. i really wanted to wait until after October... maybe i should still do that. cuz i guess i have to say that there aren't any great deals screaming out to me right now...

i know i'm picky and with my requirements it narrows the search down a lot... but i really just want a place where i can come home to and truly be comfortable. i don't want to buy furniture... i don't want to REALLY want to sign a lease (yet) unless i am obsessed with the place... i don't want to live in a basement... i don't want to live with a random guy... why do so many effing girls have effing cats... blah.

i think i'm going to just see how things weekend goes and make my final decision then. maybe if i can ask my landlord how her search is going and get her to lower the rent i will stay longer. that way i can save more money and then hopefully a perfect opportunity will come up by December. but then i kind of feel like all the searching i just did will have gone to waste... but maybe that's better than rushing into something now that i might regret later? maybe if there was one thing that was NOT happening in my life it would make this so much easier. oh well. can't do anything about it now!

okay i have like less than 4 hours left on my shift and i have tons of stuff to do so hopefully time will pass by fast. sigh sigh sigh.

goodnight.